Thoughts can be weird...can be overpowering..in fact thoughts can whirl you around and make you go frenzied ...
right now i am talking about random thoughts,about anything abstract..
Standing on terrace of multi storied flats (i must be on 9Th floor to say)building with a friend..i had one of the encounters with these omnipresent whirlpool of thoughts..i need to mention that back in college the days had been "not so good"(to be rational)..last week especially had been a complete hell of an experience!!i am not going into details of that..
so there i was standing looking down at the streets below,the kids playing n everything..suddenly it occurred to me how meagre we are, how small,perhaps how insignificant in this vast world ..i thought about thoughts ,and that how strangely are mind works...
i thought about the fights back in college..they seemed far and childish standing there..
i thought about relationships..how they changed..how many promises you make ,how many feelings you have,but at one point as you move ahead they are subjected to change for better or for worse..nothing is static..so should people stop promising..is there anything like commitment???seriously i had been drifting and drifting with no answers..perhaps its just the case with me..one shouldn't entertain these thoughts..but how do we shut our mind then???
i realised that how free our thoughts are..no one can prevent them from occurring,howsoever good a person is..envy,jealousy and selfishness do overpower the virtuous thoughts at some time..i don't say that guilt doesn't follows...
two or three months before i had been thinking good of about a whole bunch of people around me feeling myself lucky to be among such people..but two or three days before i had been sad about being among them only..then again today my thoughts are saying is there any grounds,any standard or any basis..or rather are we human enough to judge any other human..
i thought or rather realised i need to accept that there are people who dislike me for who i am..
but instead of growing sad about it i should be happy about the people who do appreciate me...i stood there for long with my friend ..thinking what this person is going to mean for me after perhaps 1 year..naah i thought 6 months would be long enough...
see here is what i am emphasising on..we grow..we think..we change..and the inevitable change comes out of blue in no particular limits of time..
completely entangled and in no mood to "think" further..
i just smiled at my friend and prayed that our thoughts shouldn't lead us astray from people who really matter ...back at hostel i messaged or called some of my old friends..just to let my relations take a better turn in their path to change!!!
True sometimes even a fiasco of thoughts helps..
